Time of mutants-.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 5:09 AM

Love instincts. Vital

Its back! haha maybe?

I felt like blogging today after i suffered sunburn.. face friggin red. Today, we had some multi-sports camp lah. Den i played soccer.. Sigh.. didnt score. well... scoring aint the main aim in a soccer. Maybe coach said right. Discipline, respect is an important factor in a game. So... we played 2 matches. One lost, one won. i made a through ball to... LEWIS. dammn nice. Coach praised, but missed.

After the camp bout 1.30, went to west mall with XF and zhiyun. Watched high school muscial 3. Which really had much kissing parts. haha.. At that moment of time, i wished that my beloved was here, sitting beside me, watching movie... etc etc... What i planned to do was.. if she was here. I would try to hold her hand.

Unfortunately.. she didnt come.. becos it was kinda last minute thing lah...this is not the main point of this post.. whereas.. Im trying to point something that loved one may leave somehow. Im feeling really vexed over this matter after watching Yujing , Chun, Xavi , Lewis play bball this morning.. It gave me a kind of irritating feeling that yujing's tryin' to impress her for some reasons. Well..i felt really bad. I cant stand it. Too much. I dont know.. im tired of thinking stuff. Im stuggling. trying to get out of the sea which i landed myself into.

The point is, she's drifting away. A long long way. I have a instinct that something bad is goin' to happen to one of us. I dont want to end there. Im serious now. Not the playboy you think i was. Im not what i am today. Im truly serious bout this. I cant let it go, I cant let her go. Its vital. In fact, getting her is already an ultimate gift no one can ever recieve. Yes, you might have thought of it. Its love. Not just ordinary love, but a very strong feeling of love.

I need sometime to think of what im over-sensative about. About this, if the special one' reading... Im really sorry but i dont wanna let you go. pls dont say that 2 words. Its a hurting phrase. I hope what you said to me, was from the bottom of your heart. Not a fake. Please tell me truthfully. I have only the fews to say.

no matter what, im behind you always.